The Middle of it All
Still surrounded by programmed multiples. At least in this instance they are familiar, close Family. “The Family”. It still saddens me that they are all completely clueless. Despite my efforts to attempt to wake any of these people up to the true realities of their lives, they simply will reprogram themselves unknowingly.
My Family have dismissed all of my actions and thoughts relating to the cult as cannabis psychosis. Honestly I am unsure what to do. I could try wake them up again, however this will just result in another mental health admission, which they will call in themselves.
Extending out, social networks outside family I encounter more programmed people. I guess such is the complex web. Control of the social alumni is tight, however if I can break the social control it would be a massive barrier that’s over stepped.
I can only keep writing and hope that someday, someone or something will pay attention. I’ve given up on seeking any external help. Otherwise it’s in all honesty an uphill battle of which I can make some headway in at the least. Accessing is still constant, however I can at least now detect when they access me and how long for. I believe it maybe constant due to the alters responsible operating out of fear, they will keep trying.
It’s clear that I cannot be around any Family whatsoever. They have no idea they are at times the ones accessing, and hearing even more stories of their lives just paints them all as an obvious trauma mind control case. If they read the Deprogramming Modalities, who knows what would happen. In any case, it’s too much to deal with.
Gaslighting is extensive, and already it’s obvious that there are somewhat malicious control patterns being attempted. Even the extent of the Gaslighting has surprised myself. So much was achieved slowly over time without my knowledge and also without the knowledge of those involved in helping me. Being more aware, I hope to this year avoid such traps. They managed to hide a lot of my deprogramming knowledge the past year. After my previous mental health admission, I understand I wasn’t the same and people considered me to have brain damage. The extent of this, or what has remained of this effect – I am unsure. I believe I am fine based on the feedback of those around me, however they are all mostly programmed persons.
I can really see how this cult would be hard to escape from. I still haven’t yet, however am getting close.
Sojan, I would like to talk with you, please email me as soon as possible, thank you. If you could help me deal with some trauma stuff I will pay you in bitcoin, price can be negotiated. Maybe you don’t technically have official therapy credentials as a clinical psychologist or clinical psychiatrist, whatever, I don’t care, I would still pay for a therapy session with you because I really need someone to help me who is knowledgeable about Ritual Abuse/Mind Control stuff. I don’t want to elaborate on the details of my situation here publicly, you can email me for details. If you want to talk only on a secure platform, maybe we could use Wire Swiss for video calls/voicecalls, or protonmail for email or something like that. I would basically want to hire you to be a therapist and I am willing to pay the same price which credentialed therapists get paid. I’m honestly extremely wary of any clinical Psychologists and Psychiatrists who are treating RA/TMBC but claim to not be survivors themselves, since I’m not sure if they could be still cult-controlled, have DID but be unaware of it. Ordinary therapists who aren’t aware of RA/TBMC might think that I’m delusional/schizophrenic if I mention anything about RA/TBMC. I feel like it would be safer for me to trust another survivor of RA/TBMC than to trust one of them since I don’t know 100% how to tell which ones are compromised and which aren’t.