God in the Labs Trigger warning: discusses Christian faith and prenatal abuse When Christians talk about the “enemy” and doing warfare, they are referring to Satan and demons. What many Christians may not realize is that those involved in occultic groups do the same; but to them, the “enemy” is the Christian God, and the “warfare”… read more »
Dealing with Recanting Faith (trigger warning: discusses Christian faith and graphic descriptions of abuse) One of the most difficult issues I have personally dealt with in my healing journey has been remembering the times I recanted my faith. I want to share from my own experiences, in the hope that this may be helpful to others…. read more »
Dealing with Rewards Programming While survivors often disclose and struggle with punishment and pain programs, there is another, opposite side to these programs that often are not verbalized until later in the healing process. This is rewards programming. Using operant conditioning principles, cult programmers will almost always program in these two opposites: extreme punishment (for disobedience)… read more »
The Greatest Healing Tool In this blog post, I wanted to talk about the greatest healing intervention that a survivor can experience: love. During my own healing journey, over the years, I have discovered that the most healing came not from what a person knew, but how much they cared. I do believe it is good… read more »
What My Healing Journey Has Been Like I thought it might be helpful to share a bit about what healing has looked like, for the past few years, as I have worked on memories. I realize that the articles I have posted (in hopes of helping therapists and those who support survivors understand more about programming… read more »
Working with internal pantheons Note: this article describes how one group programs internal systems and is not meant to comprehensively describe programming in all groups; survivors from other groups may have internal leadership structures that very from this. In the occultic group I was raised in, leadership in various systems was ranked in various ways. One… read more »
Why Getting Memories Back Can Be Difficult Often, when a survivor of ritual abuse and mind control begins to recover memories, there is significant discomfort, whether fear, physical pain, or other symptoms, that goes beyond the normal emotions involved in grieving and processing memories for those without programming. I have heard survivors make comments such as… read more »
Interview with Jo Getzinger of CARE, INC. Part 1: For Those Helping Survivors Jo Getzinger, MSW is the President of CARE, Inc., a nonprofit organization dedicated to helping survivors of ritual abuse, complex trauma and human trafficking, and to helping educate those who support survivors. She has more than 30 years of experience in working with… read more »
Exposing the International Sex Trade Trigger warning: graphic description of the international child and infant sex trafficking market These are recovered memories shared by inside parts, and while I believe them to be true and accurate, others may consider this account fictional. I will let readers decide. All international occultic societies engage in pedophilia and human… read more »
Growing Up International Part Three: Ages Three to Six I am writing these autobiographical articles to help others understand how international occultic societies program their members. The information in the articles is specific to the group I was raised in, but many of the methods described are used by other groups. Trigger Warning: this article contains… read more »